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I'm tired of leaving you at 7:30 every night to go to work.  I miss you SOOOOOOOO much.  I'm late every night because I can't stop kissing you and making sure you have everything that you need.   I can't stand to go when your little eyes follow my every move.  I don't want you to see me go out of sight and not come back.  Yes, I know Daddy does a good job, but I'm just so attached.  I want to be there too when you go down to sleep for the night.  I want to pull your soft blankets up snug around you.  I can't bare to be away from you at all!  People said I would need and want to have breaks from you, but boy they couldn't have been more wrong! I pull away from the garage begrudgingly and head over to the college to teach a 2 hour class-without you.  I think the students know that i'd rather be with you, but I still do my very best for them.  I have a picture of you on my teaching binder, and I smile when I see your sweet faces.  Since you are asleep by the time i'm done, I hope you don't mind that I hit the gym.  That's hard too, but I go late so that I don't miss out on you during the time that you are awake.  Trust me, I need to go to the gym. 
When I get home, I go strait to your cribs to check on you.  Your Father has tucked you snug in your bed with your soft blankets around you.  I smile and shake my head in amazement (sometimes I get a little teary).  You are incredible.  My heart is so touched as I return home to my little family, and I am reminded how much I am blessed.  I am reminded that I get to be your Mother and that our home is heavenly with you in it.  I check on you a few more times while I am making sure everything is just right for a new day tomorrow.  I then drift to sleep, so content that this really is my life. I love you love you love you.